last friday...

I, joan, may and berna went to NEU to defend our DBMS case study to Sir Gaucho...

actually, we were there since 10am even if our defense was on 1pm...

and after a long waiting...

at exactly 1:30pm... (we wait for 30minutes beyond our scheduled time because other students are also there to pass and defend their finished case study to Sir Gaucho)....

we start to discuss and defend our work...

it actually last for only 30 min. (we finishd at 2:05 pm)...

Sir Gaucho only noticed some unparalled use of the PK and FK...

the Hardware and Software section of our documentation...

there is no DATE entity that must be included in our system...

and that's it...

we will pass the edited documentation and rewrited ERD in the manila paper on Monday (March 23)...

Sir Gaucho also noticed that we have this relational schema and he was happy to see that we have such kind of thing that the other group doesn't have...

he also said that our DBMS is good because of its simplicity and and we easily understand all of the things that is included in our documentation....

then...

we left the faculty... maybe it was 2:15pm...

we stay on one of the rooms in the third floor and we start to edit our documentation...

we stay in Rm.318 to edit our docu...

while editing the ERD and the docu...

we eat my baon and laugh while discussing all of the things that Sir Gaucho have said...

when suddenly...

we hear a noise from nowhere...

it sounds like a chair that is being pulled at the corridor...

but when we looked outside noyhing is there... no chair and no student at all...

we only think that its just a noise from somewhere and continue on what we are doing...

then...

about past 5pm...

we set off in another room (Rm.316) because the janitress at Rm.318 said that she's going to clean the room and we may stay at the lobby if we want to...

when we are in Rm.316....

a CS student talk to us....

he ask us if Maam Villapando can boorow the laptop because Maam Villapando will present a report in front of her classmate in the SGS...

but...

we decided not to lend the laptop because we are still editing our docu...

then he evaporate... still looking for someone who can help Maam Villapando...

then...

maybe 5:30pm...

the janitress of the Rm.316 came and she's going to clean the room...

when we are about to leave the room...

we saw a blue handkerchief at the floor...

i thought that it was own by May, but she said it was not hers...

if it wasn't the handkerchief of anyone of us.... maybe it was from the janitress...

but...

the janitress just sweep it away together with the other dirt and garbages inside the room...

it's a horrifying thing.... =S

we try to edit our docu outside the Rm.318...

but suddenly...

Maam Villapando appeared... Joan and May run away... but I and Berna try to escape but we have no choice coz she have seen us...

She ask us if she can borrow the laptop coz her presentation is not able to run on other laptops...

then we go to the faculty again...

and charge the laptop and insert the disc...

the presenation was not able to run in Media Player so i try to run it using the Nero Player...

then...

it run...

we all hear the voice of Maam Villapando and Sir Jay Fuentes...

Maam said that their presentation will be at the Accre room and she will just borrow it until she finished her presentation...

maybe about 6pm...

I enter at the faculty to help the masteral students set up their laptops...

Maam Juliet Ramos is also there... she has her own laptop... but she didn't use it...

and we wait outside the library...

an hour passed...

the presentation wasn't finished yet...

so we decided to sit above the tables and do some wacky things...

we first try to make a wave... from the end of one's arm up to the other one...

then when darkness and silencre fills up the floor...

we start to tell horror movies that we have watched...

the Grudge, Ring-O, One Missed Call, the DollMaster, etc.

we are sometimes horrified on the stories that we are narrating....

and have fun on all the things that we are saying...

we laugh....

and talk about many issues....

then...

Maam Villapando invites us to enter the Accre room because of the gratitude that she owes us...

She invites us to eat inside and drink...

she gave us Lemon square cakes and Coke....

we noticed that Sir Bouing (he is the teacher of Maam Villapando and the other Masteral students inside the room they are presenting their audio-visual work and Sir will grade it...)is speaking in tagalog and laugh together with the other professors...

then...

Sir Bouing ask us to stand up and observe the things that he will instruct to his students...

he gave a sheet of paper to each and every student and instruct them to create something on the piece of paper that he gave to them...

he only gave them a minute to do it....

the 4 of the students make a boat, 2 of them make an airplane, and Maam Juliet make a tie...

Sir Bouing explain what are the meanings of the things his student have done...

the only thing we like is his explanation about the tie that Maam Juliet have made...

he says that the tie represents Maam Juliet goal to tie all the people inside this university and make a bond with another...

then... he shut the lights and let us feel the darkness...

then... he open it again and explain why he shut the light...

he says that if a person cannot see the anything and he/she nothing to do with it or he/she has doing nothing to enlighten the room... he/she will just bring the university into darkness and failure...

then... we applause for his nice lecture...

he thanked us for being the observers of his class...

and also with the other professors...

we left accre and went to the third floor to get Maam Villapando's things...

I've observed that she is afraid of the dark... coz she's saying something about creepy things that may appear while we are walking...

then...

we enter the faculty and after a minute or two... we left the room and shut the lights...

as we are walking...

maybe...

its a part of my "kapraningan"....

i hear a buzzer that cracks the silence in NEU...

i tell it to May, Joan and Berna...

and when we are near in the main gate...

i saw that the lights at the Gym are still open...

i think that someone is still there and someone is practicing...

May said that it was just Kuya Larry who just testing the buzzer if it still works well...

but...

it doesn't change my opinion that someone is still there...

then...

Maam Villapando get our name so that she give us a credit on the things that we have done on that day....

hehehehe.... additional grade in CS242...

we left Era maybe about 830pm...

and silence exist in the whole university...

and at my last glimpse at the Gym...

thinking that maybe...

someone is there...

and will make my day happy again...

hay...

buhay nga nmn...

ang bilis2 tlga...

2m...

tpos n ang mga exams...

malapit n kming matapos s mga defense...

karamihan...

bakasyon n ang iniicp...

boring nmn n kc ang exam week...

masarap mgpakasaya pagkatpos ng mga hardship s mga profs...

hay...

mamimiss ko tlga ung mga friends ko...

ung mga taong nging kaclose ko sa ERA...

ung mga nagpapatawa...

nangiinis...

mga kumag n nanjan sa tabi tabi...

mga friends...

and crush...

hay...

lahat nga nmn ay may katapusan...

hirap tlgang mbuhay ngaun...

pero at least...

naexperience kong maging college student...

uminom ng mga "HARD" drinks...

nagka allergy...

nagkaroon ng mga katampuhan...

hay...

sana maextend ung college lyf ko...

sana lng talga...

hay...

http://www.momoryoma4488.blogspot.com/

mamimiss ko lhat ng tao sa Era...

ung mga twanan, tampuhan, panonood ng Tagis, hiyawan...

lahat un...

mamimiss ko ng sobra....

isa nrin dun c Mong...

ung taong nagpapasaya sa araw ko...

khit mukha akong tanga sa mga pinagsasabi ko...

basta ang alam ko..

sa sarili ko...

xa prin ang "CRUSH" ko sa lhat ng pagkakataon...

di xa nangiisnab...

binabati ako....

ngumingiti...

at...

chubby...

hehehehehe....

mamimiss ko tlga un...

to be continued....

at first...
I was just expecting that Kevin will notice me...

After my 18th birthday...
He finally knows me...

I'm so happy that Kevin knows my name...
He even call me, smile at me, and greets me even if I have a class...


I SMILE...

...because he finally notice me...even if I just admire him as a normal, typical guy... he appreciates what I'm doing... especially when we meet at the hallway...( I just say "Hi! =) ")
...because he knows how to appreciate someone... even though I'm an ordinary girl... still he knows me...
...because he's for real... he's just a room away from me...
...because my messages reach him...  (  by means of Gelden... =)   )
...because he knows my name...

I CRY

...because I still feel empty... even if he knows me... even if he appreciates me... still... my feelings doesn't change at all... he still remains as my crush...
...because I always expect more than what he's doing for me...
...because I can't reach the status of his life...
...because I can't LOVE him...

I FROWN

...because he just making jokes like: he said to Gracious that He misses me... of course that's a big joke... yet I accept it as a compliment... =(
...because I can't talk to him... eye to eye... heart to heart... but if that thing happens... even if it's IMPOSSIBLE... I will be speechless...
...because I always see him together with his girlfriend... ( still I wish all the best for them... =)  )
...because I'm just a typical ordinary student of New Era that admire his playing skills as a basketball player...



All in all...


I will just accept the truth and face the reality that I just admire him and he knows it...

And I thank him for being good to me...


Thank you...

well...
for me... as a fan of our team...
a big YES... it's a big deal... we hope and pray for them...
<sigh...>
<sigh...>

well...
I cannot blame anyone of them...
they give a nice and fair game to everyone...
as a matter of fact...
they give all the best they could give...
but still...
it was not enough...

most of them are going to graduate this school year...
we all think that they will win because of the fact that this is the last BB game that they will play in Era...
but still...
a phrase win this time around.... "Don't expect to much... it will lead to disappointment..."

<sigh>
<sigh>
I try to go inside the shower room after the game...
but I saw  Angel's face... He's sad and he's not in the mood...
I just shout and yell the word... "It's not a big deal... You won last year... It's just ok..."
but I'm not in the position to say that thing...
I'm not a player... nor a part of the team...
I'm just a fan who only know how to cheer and yell and take some pictures...

<sigh...>
<sigh...>

Well... there is always a winner... and a loser...
If they continue blaming their selves (their sadness continue after a week)...
well... that is a loser's way on how to relieve their selves...
they will prove that they are losers...
I did not say this just to blame them or what so ever...
They must focus on the brighter future they will have after they graduate...

their dream is somehow fulfilled...
the Basketball Team of CET win over the BB team of CEM...

the CET BB team will compete against the formidable BB team of CBEA in the finals...
as always...
both team are famous for having a talented and skilled players..

as usual...
we will (me together with my classmates) support the CET BB team... once more...
we will cheer for them...and take some pictures and videos ...
another memorable moments for all of us...
and before the seniors like Abalos and Maglalang leave the gates of New Era...
we will grab the opportunity to get some pictures of Abalos, Maglalang, Luna and Lacaba...

sigh...
as long as CET BB team never say die...
we will never say die...

kamusta nmn ang midterm...
especially in Statistics...
biruin mo gumawa pa ako ng 7 pages back-to-back n reviewer pra sa Stat...
and then wla... bagsak prin ako...
hay... kasalanan ko rin nmn eh...
maxadong nagconcentrate ang utak ko sa Stat... di ako ngrelax...
yan tuloy...
sisisihin ko rin ung Proctor...
ang aga2x ang ingay ingay...
ang tinis p ng boses...

Nung Tuesday nmn (August 5), the whole day ko kaklase c HE...
humingi p nga ng paper skin eh...
whahahaha... natuwa nmn ako... kaso di pa rin nya ako kilala...
ATE ang tawag nya saken... (eh mas mukha p nga xang matanda kesa skin eh)....
well... mejo nging ok ung exam ko sa OS at File Org...

sa Logic Circuits...
ok lng din... phirap lang ung convesion... BAD TRIP...

sa English...
wla akong balak magreview...
kmusta ang prof. pinaspas nya ung pagtuturo ng mga bagay2x n matatackle sa exam...
bhala xa...
kakatamad tlaga xa...

ang wish ko lng nmn...
makapasa kming lahat...
pra next year (khit di sure n makkapg aral p ako) sma sama kmi...

Good Luck to all of us...

a lot of people think that I'm a dumb person...
maybe because of my attitude and personality...
many of those people who doesn't know me believe that I'm just an ordinary person...
I am ordinary but I can do what others can't...

Last night...
I cry...(without a big damn reason)...
I just remember the feeling I felt when i was in High School...
I have many memories left in LHS...
My dearest friends and some people who doesn't care for me...
Including my crush in HS...
HE is someone who I care most...

but...
I really can't understand boys' feeling whenever a girl confess their feeling to them...
maybe, HE's shock knowing that there is someone who likes HIM...

Anyways...
I remember what my friends gave me in my 17th bday...
I makes me blush... and blush whenever I remember it...
My friends request HIM to lend the rose which my friend bought for me...
HE accept my friends request...
it was during MATH class (under Ms. Villafranca)...
my friends told Maam that they are going to conduct a game...
the game was all about Trigonometry...
I was included in the game...
Actually I'm the third contestant...
A friend of mine blindfolded me and the word that I need to guess is behind me...

after 30 seconds...(I can't guess the word 'coz there is no given clue)...
a song (the song is "Nakapagtataka by Sponge Cola") was played...
and when I open my eyes...
I saw HIM standing at the door...
HE's holding a rose (an orange one...)and a BOUQUET of LETTERS from my friends...
After giving me the rose and the bouquet of letters...
HE said "Sorry... Please forget what I've done in the past..."
Actually... HE didn't mean to hurt me...
I'm the one who hurts myself...

But after...
HE just move away from me...
It hurts but I must accept it... I don't own HIM...
BUT STILL... it hurts...
my feelings for HIM doesn't change at all...

But then...
my personality as a hopeless romantic doesn't change a lot...
I still hope that someday a PRINCE will come to save me from my depressions and failures in my LIFE...

is it jealousy?...
I don't own him...
HE's not my property...

BUT...
What is this feeling that I feel whenever I see HIM talking to my friend...
HE always talks to vhea (actually prati c vhea ang kausap nya... huhuhu.. )

I always say to myself that...
"Lea,it's OK..."
"HE's not worth it... rather HE had a GF..."
"why do you push yourself to HIM???"
"do you want HISTORY repeat itself???"

I've been in love for the past 2 years...
but I felt disappointment after...
LOVE sometimes gives me HEADACHE...(honestly... )
Like what my sister said...
"Ate... di nmn hinahanap yan eh... dumarating yan... malay mo di lang isa yung darating... bka dalawa o higit pa..."

Kung tutuusin tama sya...
Bat ako naghahanap?
masarap tlagang magmahal pero kung me nagmamay ari n skanya.....

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..
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Si God n ang bahala...
alam nmn Nya lahat eh...
di nmn Nya tayo hahayaang masaktan dahil sa LOVE n sya ring dahilan kung bait tayo nbubuhay sa maliit n mundong ito...

nakakahiya talaga...
na- shock tlaga ako...
di ko tlaga cnasadyang matawag na KUYA c sir ANGEL...

huhuhu...
I hope he can accept my apology... (nagcomment nlng ako sa FS account nya...)...
grabeh...
nkakaLOKA ang araw n i2 (july 23,2008)...

ang pangit ng laro ng CET BB team..
puro mga CBEA ang nandun (actually ung isang 1st year ay eskandalosa dun s game... ang CHAKA nya...)

hay...
wla n ring chance n mkita ko png maglaro ng BB  sa CET  c HE..
ay nku... wla n atang pag asang manalo ang CET eh...
pero I pray n manalo cla...
 

I thought HE will not notice me at all...
I thought it was just vhea and lota who HE can speak of (tama b ang grammar?)...


BUT SUDDENLY...
one cloudy morning...
as usual HE's my classmate for the whole day...
and we need to write something....
HE... doesn't have a BALLPEN...
HE borrowed to vhea and lota but they don't have extra pen so...
vhea point me... and she said (sa pagkakaalaala ko...)

"yan c lea parati yang me extra..."
but HE doesn't hear it.. (kakadugo mag-ENGLISH... nose bleed... Aaarrggghh)...
kaya c vhea pinilit ako... (buti nlng parati akong me dalang extra pen)...
so I decided to make HIM borrow it (tama b ang grammar?)...

ako mismo ang nagbigay sa kanya ng pen...
kaya deep inside kilig to bones ang drama ng LOLA nyo...
and inisip ko n un ang way para kausapin nya ako...

AND SUDDENLY...

in the next class...
matagal dumating ung prof... kaya kwentuhan lng kmi ng kwetuhan...
labas masok SYA ng room...

then...

gelden ask HIM kung me game later...
so HE replied... "OO, cguro mamayang 2:30 or 3:00pm"...

DEADMA...
wla lang.. di nmn kc me ang kinakausap nya eh...
well... tuloy ang kwentuhan... tawa d2 tawa doon...

AND THEN...
HE sit beside lota... me tinanong... and HE suddenly said...
"Ay, kanino nga pla itong ballpen n i2..."
lota point me...
"ke lea yan"...
yung mga kausap ko at katabi ko (joan,jajay,vhea,regine,tin,kisa,berna,may,lota and elaine)...
bigla atang nag-pause or something...
sabay sbi NYA...
"thank you ha..."
ako nmn parang manhid tumango lng sa kanya... andI was trying to get the pen from HIM but he jokingly said...
"ayaw mo ata ATE eh... cge WELCOME n rin..."
I just laugh... and I reply...
"Cge Welcome din hehehe..."...


FOR A WHILE...
yung mga kausap ko biglang nagreact....
kilig to bones cla (imbes n ako ang matuwa o magreact o mamula sa sobrang ngiti ng puso ko...)....
cla pa i2ng tuwang2x... paOBVIOUS tlaga cla (hehehehehe....)
It's ok...
masaya n me sa ganung sitwasyon...

BUT THEN...
nagpasulat ang prof nmin...
nkikinikinita ko n na manghihiram XA ng BALLPEN ulit...
tama nga ako...
HE suddenly turn back and said...
"ay pedeng pahiram ulit ng BALLPEN..."
of course pinahiram ko xa...
natuwa nmn ung mga ka-row ko...
ako....
DEADMA... but deep inside "SWERTE KO NMN NGAUNG ARAW N i2... THANK GOD..."


AFTER MAGSULAT...
nagpadismiss kagad ung prof nmin...
cnauli NYA ung pen but i refuse and tell him...
"mamaya nlng... magpapaquiz c sir marc eh... for sure manghihiram k ulit..."
para akong nanay NYA n nag-aalala sa kanya...
so di n muna nya binalik...
ung mga taong nakarinig nun... ngumiti... and repeat what I've just said...

WELL
swerte tlga ako ngayong araw n i2...(JULY 22,2008, Tuesday)
it's a big deal for me for some reason...
cguro kc natakot n akong makihalubilo ung taong nagu2stuhan ko...
paOBVIOUS kc ako eh...
so ang resulta...
when my crush knows what do I feel for him...
they move or stay away from me (uhhh... wawa nmn me...)
I always think that I'm a filthy girl... kaya nila ako nilalayuan...
so I decided not to be too transparent or act like a bully girl...
I'm trying to be a new person... with same personality...
but the only thing I want to change in ME is my look...
maybe that's the reason why boys don't mind me at all...
I'm trying to be a man hater... but I can't...

WELL...
this is life for sure...
sometimes your happy... smetimes your sad... sometimes your mad...
kaya I enjoy it nlng kc malay mo bukas paggising mo may di inaasahang bagay ang mawawala sau...

I think... I just misjudge him... HE'S not so bad like what I've just said on my first posts...

Maybe.. tlagang gnun lang xa...

maxadong kampante s lahat ng bagay n nasa paligid nya... kc nga nmn isa xang PLAYER...
he's relaxed on some things n di ko nmn alam...


HE'S a person who knows how to laugh with HIS friends..
... who knows to enjoy life being with someone HE loves...
... who make such act where people around HIM can laugh or smile...


HAY...
even though I accept the truth... still, it aches for some reasons...
but I know this feeling will vanish sooner or later...

I just wish that WE can be close friends for some reasons or incidents...
I... just wish that HE will talk to me... or ask me questions... or anything....
I hope this things will be possible lalo na't malapit na ang SPORTS FEST s school....

sna makakuha ulit ako ng shots and stolen shots s upcoming SPORTS FEST.

BUT...
A VERY BIG BUT...
HE will notice me once I ask HIM to have some pics...

OH! NO!

What am I thinking???
Oh! No! Am I stupid or what???

It's to obvious (classmate ko pnmn xa)... even though I'm a transparent person, still... I have DIGNITY and MORALITY... Huhuhuhu...

A BIG NO! NO!

Wait a second...
Di ba sbi ko kakalimutan ko n xa?

HAY NAKU...
inaatake n nmn ako ng skit ko na pagiging SPORTS MINDED.

BETCHA BYE GOLLY WOW...
I must forget everything about HIM and start a new life as a full-pledged student...

Well...
LOVE MAKES EVERYONE BLIND... MAKES EVERYONE CRAZY... and MAKES EVERYONE STUPID...
maxado atang HARSH...
I must stop it for once and for all...

to all the people who has a CRUSH...

bka magulat kau sa totoong ugali nila...

di mo aakalain n ang taong mukhang perfect s mata moh... biglang naging isang malaking kasinungalingang hindi mo makayng matanggap...


i have a crush ... naging crush ko xa dhil sa pagiging magaling sa basketball and HE'S the CAPTAIN BALL... magaling talaga xa... sinusunod ng mga colleagues and higher years n kasama sa game...

maybe that's one of the reason why we won in the previous TAGIS LAKAS (2nd sem AY 2007-2008)...
maganda ang leadership... mukhang ANGHEL... n may BRACES ang ngipin...
mejo chubby pero maputi at matangkad... magalang kung tutuusin kasi nagpapicture ako sa kanya and HE called ME... "ATE"

even though he doesn't know me... i know him on his name...
HANGGANG DUN LANG ANG ALAM KO SA KANYA ng mga panahon n iyon...
HE... a very good example of a model student... HE's NEAT, GOOD LOOKING, MAGALANG, MABAIT... yun at yun ang umiikot sa ulo ko kapag nababanggit ang pangaln nya...

PERO...

NGAYON.... 

HE's my classmate in four of my subjects...
I... thought HE's someone who's intelligent and knows how to BEHAVE as an educated person...

AYUN... 

PASAWAY... nag cacutting class... magpapaalam n magsi CR after 10min...15min... hanggang matapos ang period WLA xa sa KLASE lalo't higit boring ang prof... (talagang BORING as in...)

tapos ang ingay sa loob ng room... pinapatugtog ang PDA or ung CP nya as if no one hears it except HIM... ang lakas ng loob... in front of the PROF pa yun ha... (plibhasa kilala xa ng PROF...)...

HAYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!

HE doesn't know someone cares about HIM (tama b ang grammar???)
But I can't blame HIM...
buhay NYA iyun...

gnun talaga cguro ang mga tipo kong lalaki...
matangkad.. maputi... tahimik sa unang tingin pero pag nakilala mo maingay pla...
buti nlang and i don't fall for HIM...(tama b ang grammar???)

yan kasi ang npapala ng katulad kong asa ng asa...
EXPECT and EXPECT but you GET nothing FROM your EXPECTATIONS...
buti nlng natutunan ko nang wag mahulog maxado sa taong di k nmn papansinin...

WELL... magaaral nlng ako... BUTI PA YUNG LIBRO, napapansin kapg kelangan ng assignment PERO AKO kpag di n kailangan parang wla lng at nabubulok s isang tabi... cguro magaantay nlng ako ng taong  magbubuklat sa akin at babasahin ako ng habang buhay....